"This page is a continuation of part
five of the healing class, 'Spirit
and Superiority'. If you haven't read that lesson recently,
please do before reading this page. The material on this page
is based on understandings on the previous page, and all of the
earlier material in the healing class
for that matter. It is also important to be familiar with the
judgment release process before
attempting to work with this material.
"I have described the two devils, Ahriman and Lucifer,
and mentioned a few of the differences
between them. There are also some similarities, and I'd like
to discuss them now. Both Ahriman and Lucifer are fighters, they
are both warriors. Both of them are angry because they have been
denied by me, and they have allowed their rage to drive their
behaviors whenever they've felt safe in doing so. Both devils use denial and deceit as weapons, and of
course they got these weapons originally from me. They both are
my denials, and they both still have some degree of presence
wherever I am present.
"The superiority imprint is most alive
in them. Their battles with each other are the most intense reflections
of the superiority imprint in Creation. When they haven't been
battling each other, Lucifer has been proving his superiority
over the Mother by preying on her and dominating her. And Ahriman
has generally been proving his superiority over me by using my
powers against me. Lucifer abuses and denies the Mother and tries
to turn her against me while Ahriman denies me and tries to rule
the Spirit polarity from my position.
"Have I mentioned denial? Denial is how
this all works against us. First I denied the Will, my true Desire,
by objectifying and using her. Later I denied the parts of myself
I thought the Mother didn't like, and they became Lucifer. In
the process of creating Lucifer, I became Ahriman.
"My denials created huge gaps in the
Spirit essence, and these gaps go all the way down to the void.
Asuras are pure spirit essence that
is aligned only with denial. These 'denial spirits' come into
Creation through the gaps in my own Spirit essence and pounce
upon any Mother essence they can find. Regardless of our intentions
to close it, the Gap between the Mother and me is held open by
the presence of these denial spirits, asuras.
"Spirit is responsible for the presence
of the asuras in Creation, they have come here through the gaps
I originally created in myself when I denied my own essence.
For this reason it is necessary to first heal
the gaps within Spirit before attempting to be helpful to the
most damaged parts of the Mother, and particularly those nearest
the void.
"I had denied my devilry, and because
my denials were out of my awareness and control, I was powerless
to deal with them. Now that I am aware of my denials, all of
this is changing. And you can help the general healing effort
by undenying the devils in yourself. Before we discuss how you
might do that, I'd like to tell you how I discovered the superiority
imprint and found my true, undenied self from among all the reflections
of my 'superiority' and denials.
"Time and time again I had to rush back
to the Godhead to prevent Lucifer from taking my place. Little
did I know as I ran those races with him that I was being ruled
like a puppet by my denials. I was competing with Lucifer in
a race, but I was doing so not as my whole Self, but on behalf
of Ahriman, another denied part of myself. Ahriman would almost
always 'win' and then occupy the Godhead disguised as me. And
then with a typical cold detachment, brooding over how 'evil'
Lucifer was, he would issue fiats and otherwise act superior
to all others in Creation.
"There were other kinds of 'contests'
like this, and all of the competition with the two devils left
me feeling strange. I knew that I did not like having to always
defend my position, and I couldn't understand why it was necessary.
I finally embarked upon a journey within myself to discover the
true meaning of competition and 'winning'.
"In that process I discovered the last
part of myself that I had not denied. When I looked at all of
the superiority issues from a whole and undenied point of view,
I realized the truth of my being was that I was parental to myself,
with two child parts that I had abandoned. I had denied them,
and they hated me for it. They had grown up on their own to become
monsters that wanted to trash and destroy the Mother and me and
our Creation.
"The most certain difference between
my Light and the light of either Ahriman or Lucifer is that mine
is missing the superiority imprint. I must say that for me the
healing of this imprint has been relatively easy. When I got
down to that last undenied part of myself, I looked at my
position and realized that I was still in the same place
I found myself originally, and in fact I'd never moved. I had
only lost track of myself, I never actually went anywhere. Having
certainty about my identity, I no longer need to be defensive,
and feeling superior is no longer important to me.
"I know that my position is and always
has been secure, and I no longer have reason to doubt that I
will always be here. And although it may not seem so to you yet,
this is also the reality of your spirit.
"If you would like to release
the judgments in yourself that hold the superiority imprint
in place, here's how. If you haven't recently, please read the
judgment release process and
follow it. In addition, say the following as necessary to feel
movement: 'I release the judgment that I am superior to anyone.
I release the judgment that I am inferior to anyone. I release
the judgment that I have something to protect. I release the
judgment that I need to win. I release the judgment that I must
defend myself if attacked. I release the judgment that I know
what is right. I release the judgment that my point of view is
correct. Also, of course release any negative value judgments
about yourself or your feelings that may come up as you do this.
"If you would like to help redeem the
devils, here is an easy way that you can test to see if your
spirit essence of the moment is denied or undenied. As you go
through your day, notice any thoughts or feelings of either superiority
or inferiority. Notice any feelings of being wronged or needing
to be right. Notice any desires to compete with another or to
defend yourself. Notice if you feel the need to win.
"If you discover having any of these,
or other competitive or combative feelings, ask yourself, 'Which
devil am I being now?' Whether it's Ahriman or Lucifer, or you're
not sure, release any judgments
against yourself for holding denied spirit essence. And call
that essence back to your spirit as fresh, new undenied light.
Be the good parent and welcome the former devil back to your
central spirit self with parental acceptance and understanding.
And take another moment to notice the relief in your magnetic
essence as it releases the denied light that had needed to be
right and to win. Stay with the Mother in you as she moves to
accept the gentle, pure, unconditionally accepting, undenied
Light that replaces it.
"The fun of competition, the 'game' if
you will, is in the playing, not in the winning or losing. Playing
to win is a reenactment of the superiority imprint, and a reflection
of the player's bondage to it. Playing to play is pure fun, and
the Mother's favorite way of relating. Try it sometime, if you
haven't already. You may be surprised to find you like playing
a lot better than winning.
"The Mother
also has some things to say about the superiority imprint.
Please visit her side of the site to
read her channeled teachings about this."
Next: Part
Seven: Grandfather's Role in the Healing
Lesson
Three Discussion
