"In the beginning
of this lesson I've told part of the story
of how I tried to use the magnetic, Mother essence
as a 'mirror' to reflect myself back to me so I
could learn more about my identity. There is some
more of the story of our first encounter that needs
to be told now. I was not only curious about this
'thing' I had discovered, I was afraid of it. I knew
right away it was not me, and although I knew almost
nothing else about it, I feared that it could
overpower me.
"My initial curiosity about this
thing was not purely scientific, but was fueled by a
deep apprehension that it might somehow dislodge me
from my position. This feeling was doubly
disconcerting because at that time I was still
uncertain of who or what I was, and my identity and
position were beginning to seem one in the same. I
immediately adopted an attitude of wariness and
suspicion toward the newcomer, and at the same time
I denied my fears of her because I didn't like how
they felt.
"I also felt that my position, and
therefore my existence would be even more threatened
if I admitted these fears, so at the time I felt
right in denying them. Besides, I had already
decided that I wanted to feel only pleasant
feelings, and these feelings were clearly not
pleasant. Of course, I blamed the magnetic essence
for giving them to me, and I had some anger about
that which also went undercurrent when I denied it
for being too unpleasant to feel.
"I had denied both fear and anger in
order to feel good about myself while protecting
myself from an unknown threat. I very much wanted to
get rid of this disturbing, threatening thing as
soon as possible, but curiosity about myself
returned as soon I felt that I had 'dealt' with the
'threat' by denying my feelings about it.
"Now reassured of my superiority, I
decided to use my position in relation to this
'thing' to make her help me find out more about
myself. What I didn't realize then was that my
perceived need to protect myself and my position,
along with my denied feelings, were driving my
thoughts and behaviors as I experimented with this
stranger who was not me.
"It was during this experience that I
established the first 'principle' in Creation. I
laid it down as a Divine Fiat that Spirit, namely
me, was superior to any and all others who were not
me. And the undercurrents of this formal
determination of my superiority have been fueling
the war that has been raging in Heaven and
throughout Creation ever since.
"I know now that this 'principle' was
actually only a notion that I adopted defensively in
a time of vulnerability, and that it has no basis in
reality other than the reality I have given it.
Nevertheless, this imprint carries all the weight of
God's Word and has infected every spirit in
Creation. The effects of this have made a huge mess
of almost all the relating among spirits and all
manifested beings, and especially between the Mother
and me.
"Every fragment of Spirit has this
imprint of superiority, and because of it every
spirit has felt the need to assert their superiority
whenever their identity or position is threatened,
or whenever they've wanted to take something from an
'inferior'. This imprint is what drives all
predatory behavior in Creation. It is the basis of
all competition and fights, and of course the
fundamental motivation of war.
"The superiority imprint is activated
in those who believe they are right, are on the
right side in a battle, have just cause in attacking
another, are in some way 'better' than another,
wanting something another has, or are feeling like
they need to win or be first. This imprint is the
deep unconscious driving force under all feelings of
competition, and in every use of weapons, including
self defense. The need to be right and the need to
be superior are very deeply ingrained in the spirit
essence of all beings because of this imprint.
"Magnetic essence, however, does not
have this imprint. Magnetic essence, without
influence of spirit or undermining by spirit's
judgments, is naturally open and receptive and holds
no beliefs or judgments of its own. It is only
spirit essence that can make and hold judgments, and
only spirit essence that feels the need to be
superior. This is an important key in learning to
know the difference between these two essences
within yourself. Magnetic essence has an agenda of
love and nurturance, spirit essence has an agenda of
accomplishment and winning, and of course both
essences are present in all humans.
"Because I am the Creator of this
universe and the role model for the Spirit Polarity,
it seems that I have a 'superior' and therefore
better position relative to other spirits. Because
parents are older, wiser, and more responsible than
their small children, it seems that they have a
superior position relative to their children. The
same for teachers and students, mentors and
protégés, coaches and performers, etc. And because
their position is 'superior', it is easy for them
and others to believe that they are somehow superior
as a being, and this is simply not true. It is also
not true that one position is superior to another in
every way, and we'll discuss more of the position
issue soon.
"The truth is that 'superior' and its
opposite 'inferior' are both value judgments. To
value one thing as superior to another is to value
the other as inferior, and both of these judgments,
like all value judgments, are wrong. This may seem
hard to believe at first, but if you look closely at
each example you find of these judgments in
yourself, you'll see that what I'm saying here is
true.
"This is actually very good news,
because when you realize that you are not superior
to someone else, you must also realize that no one
else is superior to you. There are no gradations of
quality in my Creation. Every being, every object is
excellent. None is better or worse than another.
There are vast differences in ability and position,
but these differences do not speak to anyone's
quality of being. Ability and position differences
are issues that speak to the circumstances and
environment in which a being finds itself.
"My position relative to the Spirit
polarity may be that of leader, but this does not
mean that I am superior to other spirits, and it
does not mean that the position of leader is a
superior position to the position of follower. It is
different, but not 'better'. This also does not mean
that the parent or the teacher is better than the
child or the student. They have different roles
relative to each other, but those roles can and
often do change. Was Plato better than Aristotle?
Neither of them believed so. Is a man better than a
woman, or a woman better than a man? No, and
although they may be in different positions relative
to each other, neither position is better.
"There's been a lot of talk about how
God is better than everyone else, and I must admit
that as long as I was worried about my identity and
my position, I encouraged that perception. Now that
I'm aware of how much damage and suffering has been
caused by the Principle of Superiority, and because
of the fact that it's simply not true, I have
released the judgments that created it in the first
place. I have also felt through the imprint and the
feelings I had denied at the time, and this part of
the Mother and I are now together. Now all anyone
need do to be free from the bondage of needing to be
right is to release the judgments that hold this
imprint in place, and we'll discuss this and more in
the next part of this lesson, 'Superiority and the Two
Devils'."
