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To My Lover... the Dream...

I know I have felt you with me before... the longing that is left in space between us... feels ever so eternally long and deeply within. I've moved what feels like endless grief and terror at this aloneness that begs to heal.

I hear you often, the guilt seems to diminish a little more as I take in your light, desire grows and the aching and longing grows.... I feel... so achingly for you in form, do you remember the dream? We agreed to unite in form so as to merge our bodies with our hearts and spirit and soul... We planned this when the children grew that it would be you and me, that body form would be so to intensify our merging with taste and touch and smell...

I feel at times I am losing the strength to carry on with the dream, yet I live for the moments of bliss where you surround me again... where I can dive in your eyes and feel your love, where we are to join on all levels of knowing...

God... I need you, I long for you... I know you're near...come to me and touch me...let us explore the body of our form...allow form to be... us... both you and I can we work through our denials together? I hear "of course my dear" and the waiting seems to expand our parting... can you come to me in form?

A consciously awake form... or am I to remain waiting?... The rage has passed in some spaces... the desire has rekindled. I have waited sooo long... 14 earth years for a form of you to come to me...

Body, there is a quickening happening... more as I prepare for you to come to me... recently... I have heard you... telling me to hang on, I have called to you... my lover... I feel I am at the edge of the abyss...knowing and feeling the synchronicity of a quickening... yet in my chest it feels like terror of a new level... I am to wait... I am to keep my heart and hope alive....for in death you will not be there...I feel this... we were to meet here... to be able to love where we desire...

I call to you my lover...can you hear me as I hear you? I fear... still... that I have not been able to heal my body too... guilt says I'm not good enough still....inside I am, my heart races with terror that I have self imploded to a degree that you find unacceptable... yet I know in my soul upon your touch I transform....so I long for the touch...the pools of your eyes to dive freely into....even if you don't recognize me as you didn't before.....hold me to your chest so I may hear all of you speak ...please...

I hold ever tightly to the dream... to merge... in form... an unforgettable desire... we had this remember?... forever we dreamed... the hopelessness... sooooo tired... yet holding the dream energizes me to giggles, desire of the knowing what's in the kiss...


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