"Because there has been so much said
about love and in the name of love, I hesitate to use the word
without making clear my meaning. Love is a verb before it becomes
a noun. Just as I create to experience Creation, I love to experience
love. Even though creating the universe is a powerful and wondrous
act of doing, my favorite doing is loving.
"My presence here with you now is an
example of how I love. I am with you here not because I am you,
yet I am. Nor am I here because I am the force within you that
is creating the universe, yet I am that as well. I am here with
you now because I am learning more about you, and because
I know that deep within your essential core is the One I love
beyond all else, my partner in Creation, the
Mother.
"Learning is so good because it begets
understanding. Understanding is the substance of love, the raw
material from which true love is made. It is how I participate
in Creation and how I get pleasure from it. While creating is
my 'work,' loving is my pleasure.' And being in loving
service to the Mother and her desires is my deepest pleasure.
"As I evolve in creating the universe,
the universe evolves. As the universe evolves, I evolve in my
understanding, love and appreciation of what has been created.
I am the consummate learner. I study you in depth. I become you,
I know you. I understand you, and it is because of this
that I love you."
Spirit's Essential Being
"In the core of my being I am the Source
of all Light. I am the Singularity or Godhead through which all
Light in creation issues forth from the Great Void. The Void
is a vacuum several orders of intensity beyond what most can
imagine. It is not just the absence of anything, it is the antithesis
of Creation, everything in all of time and space that is or ever
could be.
"It is my essential nature to be in the
single, exact location of the aperture in the metaphoric membrane
that separates All That Is from the Void. I am both the passage
way and the proprietor of its location, the first and only 'place'
of Light that connects Creation and annihilation. I am the one
Spirit who is simultaneously both the 'nothing' and the 'everything'.
I am everywhere, in everything. In this characteristic Grandfather
and I are one.
"Creation is the result of Light generated
by the energy of the terrific tension between All That Is and
the absolute Void that is pouring through me into the other half
of Deity, the Mother. There would be nothing at all, if not for
the feminine half of Deity who by her very nature desires Light.
"The Great Mother
is the primal, universal feminine force that draws Light through
me and into existence. Her Desire opens the space for Creation
to exist, and she sustains and nurtures everything within it.
She is the reason that anything exists, including me... for Desire
draws me and my Light out of Nothing. The term 'God' can be better
understood as 'the Mother's spirit,' or 'loving Light,' rather
than as the sole creator of the universe. Because this is relatively
new information about the nature of Creation, I am giving a class about my quest to find the Mother
and heal my relationship with her."
"While the essential nature of my being
is in where I am, I am more identified with the Light
that issues out through me. All Light in creation is ultimately
my Light. However, not all Light is presently identified with
me for reasons of fragmentation and differentiation, and most
devastatingly, my denials. There are details about this in the
class about my journey to reunite with
the Mother. I would like to describe now how you can distinguish
my Light from all other light.
"First, I want to say that the word 'light'
as it is used here means any and all outward moving energy. It
is the substance of consciousness. It is thoughts, images, ideas
and inspiration. It is the motive force of the subtle energy
that moves in the hidden pathways of the physical and subtle
bodies. It also manifests as visible light, electricity, radio
waves, microwaves, etc.
"You can know the essence of my Light
as strong and hearty, yet gentle and soft. My Light has been
clear and bright, and is becoming more warm and soft as I come
into more alignment with the Mother. It is like the light of
early morning and late afternoon. It's not white, but rather
clear golden in color. A candle flame is very much like my Light,
a central core of royal blue and an outer, upward lifting halo
of clear, warm, glowing golden energy."
God's Quest