"When she is ready, and in the ways she
wishes, I will bring the Mother the healing power of my true
Light, the Light of love, understanding and acceptance. As you
and I work together on your awakening to who you truly are, it
is my hope that you'll also work with me in bringing healing
to the Mother.
"I must point out that it is your choice.
Free will would be meaningless if you didn't have this choice.
I also want to say that whatever you choose in this or any matter
is always the right choice for you, and I will always support
you in it.
"This class is about healing. You will
heal yourself as you learn to channel
my loving Light through your own spirit to the parts of the
Mother in you that need it. And as you heal yourself, you and
I will also heal the rest of Creation.
"Just as I am within you, so is the Mother.
You can know my presence within as your aspirations, your highest,
most loving thoughts and ideas. You can know the Mother's presence
within as your desires, your feelings, emotions and passion.
The name I know her by is 'Desire.'
"Illness, suffering and even death are
the results of the harm that has come to Desire, to true feelings
and emotions. You have inherited, as have all beings in Creation,
the original imprints caused by hostile light that is still trapped
in the Mother.
"For a long time after the Mother and
I became aware of each other, I blamed her for the bad feelings
I sometimes got from her. I wasn't yet aware of her imprints,
or that I had caused them. Neither of us knew that her bad feelings
about seemingly innocent things I did were caused by her deepest
imprints being stirred.
"In modern psychological terms, 'She
was triggered by my behaviors which caused her to reenact her
original trauma.' But this dynamic no longer applies to just
the Mother and me. It's about all of Creation. What happened
originally between us is still happening now inside of you.
"For a long time after I became aware
that the Mother had been seriously damaged by her deep imprints,
I still blamed her for them. I couldn't remember doing anything
to her myself. I felt that it must have been someone else who
had done this, no doubt 'Lucifer.'
"Most of the messages I have sent to
humanity through my prophets, teachers
and channelers have been skewed by the blame I had for the
Mother. Patriarchy and prejudice against women are reflections
of my original blame that still remain.
"Without going into the details now,
I'll say that the least serious thing I did because of her bad
feelings was to ignore her. More serious actions included banishing
her from heaven and ostracizing and humiliating her in front
of all the beings we had created together.
"The worst thing I did was to turn the
other way as my denied power took the form of Lucifer and mercilessly
tortured her for most of eternity in a place that can only be
called Hell. You may be thinking that surely God could not have
done these things. But I know now that I did do these things,
although for a long time I was in denial of it.
Apology to the Mother
"Because I am no longer denying the damage
that the Mother has suffered, I can help her heal it. And this
is my intention. The road thus far has been long and twisted,
with many false starts and dead ends. Now that the truth of what
has happened is exposed, I will never again be able to go into
denial about these things.
"I will never again turn away from the
Mother or her pain. The road ahead is quite different than where
we've been so far in Creation. The new road begins here.
"There are no words adequate to convey
the depth of my sorrow for what my denied light has done to the
Mother. I can only express this in Creation and specifically
in the ways that I make it up to her. Until now, Creation has
been Spirit's thing. The Mother's role was either ignored or
minimized.
"I begin my apology here with this message
to the Mother, 'I am sorry I used my power to protect and glorify
myself at your expense. I know now that you never meant me any
harm and that what I saw as ugly in you was my own reflection.
I understand now that the true power and glory of Creation is
in your deepest and most sensitive Desire.
"'My love, I am now ready to fulfill
the promise I first made to you. I now make it so that your Desire
is my will. I'm sorry I took so long to get that right. And I
will demonstrate my seriousness and sincerity to you beginning
now.'
"This is the end of the first lesson
in this class. I have much more to say about the Mother and me,
and in other lessons I will share some practical methods that
will make it easier to do the healing work we've begun to describe.
In the meanwhile, I would like you read the page on judgment.
Also, recommended reading for this class is Right Use of Will
by Ceanne DeRohan."