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How can You drive backwards, not looking to the future, and at the same time have a Plan that involves our future evolutions? As I consciously choose to do this healing work and face backwards, and as I struggle with my old patterns of projecting myself into the future (a deep habit to break!), I often am stumped as to how to realize this. Can You give some input here, please.
"Yes, driving backward is the most challenging part of my advice to those spirits who wish to evolve and heal more quickly. And there is a big difference between getting visions or seeing the plan, and projecting yourself into the future. Your visions are an important part of your evolution. And I've said that while you have visions, I have a plan. The truth is that for a very long time I had another plan, but since I discovered Grandfather's, I've let go of mine and have aligned with his.
"Grandfather's plan is simply more grand and inclusive and vital that mine was, and I know the power of Grandfather's grace is more and more quickly drawing us closer to him and his Desire, as it guides us toward wholeness. When you receive a vision of the future, it comes to you as part of the plan. And that's all you need to know about it or do about it. It's there, and it's safe. It will come to pass more or less as you envision it, the essential elements will all manifest.
"As you look back upon the visions you've had, you will find that certain parts of them have already manifest, and others have not yet come into your reality. This is the difference between visions and the plan, the plan has an element of timing that has never been completely captured in a vision. This unseeable dimension makes it impossible to turn to the future and project ahead to what you'll be doing in each step toward the realization of your vision. That's why it's easier and faster to not try to second guess the timing of the plan, and to drive backward, feeling for my presence and the stream of Grandfather's grace for guidance in your direction.
"The habit of projecting yourself into the future and imagining yourself doing things there goes way back in your evolution as manifested beings. It was one of the two major distinctions between humans and other mammals, long before the land of Pan manifested here with spiritual beings in physical human forms.
"The other unique trait of humans has been the love of learning through experimentation, which is related to future projecting. Both of these are very valuable skills for surviving and thriving in physical reality, but future projecting is an impediment to healing into wholeness. Of course, if you have a destination other than wholeness, or if you believe you already know how to achieve wholeness, driving backward will not make sense to you.
"Braking a habit that is this deeply ingrained in your genes is very good work, and may require more patience and self-acceptance than you've needed for breaking other habits that no longer serve you. So here is my advice. First, let yourself off the hook for having to do it perfectly from the beginning. You're learning something new, and it will feel strange and unaccustomed for awhile, and there will be many times when you find yourself doing it the old way.
"Second, simply catch yourself when you find yourself projecting into the future and ask, 'Do I know enough about this situation to find the healing in it, and find my way through it into wholeness?' If the answer is, 'Yes,' ask yourself, "Am I sure?' If the answer is, 'No,' ask yourself, 'How can I find the stream of grace to guide me through it?' The answer here will be to turn around and let the future happen according to the plan, because right now the present moment is calling you home.
"It is only in this moment now that anything can be done anyway. And the best view of the moment is not looking out from it into the formless void of the future. The best view from here is to look back upon this moment as the culmination of all other moments. Look back from now and realize that this is the farthest into the future anyone has ever been. Right now you're on top of all Creation. Stay here with me now a while longer as we connect with the stream of Grandfather's grace. Healing happens, and wholeness is coming."
I have been gradually digesting Your guidance about "driving backwards" through Creation. It really made me stop and do a turn around in my thinking about myself and my world and how I create, especially the me that tends towards projecting into the future as a way to accomplish things. The more I stayed with this I began to see and understand how, like you said God, Creation is always happening in the present moment, and in my projecting into the future I really am missing the wonder and magic of Now.
"There have many other versions of this same guidance. Becoming fully present in the moment is more than magic. It's a miracle, and nearly every human who has accomplished it has tried to tell the others about how it's done. The real journey for spirit doesn't begin until you've learned how to 'be here now'.
"Turning around and facing backward is the same as 'going within', in that it changes your attention from looking outward toward the future to looking inward toward where it has all come from. Since the present moment is the farthest into the future anyone has been in linear time, you can be completely on top of it all when you turn backward and face inward.
"Carlos Castaneda discussed this same subject with his mentor, Don Juan who called it "stopping the world", or essentially compiling linear time into a single present moment. It's only possible to stop the world while facing backward. When you face forward you're leading the world into the future, and you can not simultaneously stop it and lead it onward."
And each time I repeat patterns, especially ones that don't feel good, it is me choosing once again to live and believe such realities. Why are some of these creations so hard to change?
"They are difficult to change because it's hard to find them while facing forward. They are part of where you're coming from, and the first step is to turn around and begin looking and feeling for them. This is the trouble most people have in making changes in themselves, first becoming aware they have a pattern that isn't helpful, and realizing it's their creation and therefore something they can change.
"You've done the hardest part already when you've gotten this far. From here the four steps are relatively easy. First intend to change the pattern, second align with me in driving backward and collect all the information you can about the pattern, third release any judgments that support the pattern, and fourth move the emotions that have been held in check by the pattern or the judgments that created it.
"As you can see, this cannot be done while facing forward. What usually happens in that case is a new pattern is tried in hopes it will replace the old one, but then the two patterns come in competition with each other, and of course the older and stronger pattern usually wins out. Just like in judgment release, it's important to release what has been in place before attempting to replace it with what you want."
I also see how my future projections are in many ways fear avoidance, where instead of staying present with my fears and helping them release into whatever they need, I rise above them with my mental energies and try to arrange future situations such that Fear won't exist. But I know now this doesn't and hasn't worked to really give me the peace and joy I want. So, as you have suggested God, I am turning myself around and working my way to the front of the bus with You. Your presence here is reassuring to me, especially because driving backwards is new to me after so long efforting to drive forwards.
"Yes, and like anything new it takes a little practice to get good at it. You are right to stay present with your fears and anxieties. Of particular interest are the feelings you get driving backward not knowing where your life will take you. In driving backward you're trusting that you are going as quickly toward wholeness as possible, with no idea of what that will look like in terms you're familiar with, like where you'll live, your work, money, relationships, etc. Fear of the loss of control is very good to experience and move here."
And I am beginning to get it that using the present moment to look back on what I have created is so valuable for learning from experience and thus guiding in new creations. I see that so much energy is often spent on focusing on the future without having fully digested and integrated the past that a lot of mistakes are just repeated. In many ways it makes life simpler and easier and more fulfilling to drive backwards. And really, in a sense, all the past is with me in every present moment, although much of it in a denied state because I haven't accepted it... and so the present moment offers this amazing opportunity over and over again to reclaim the parts of me I have disconnected from as I grow into greater wholeness.
"Your eagerness and willingness helps you to get things quickly. And you realize that your tendency has been to lift out of issues and situations that would bog you down. In driving backward you now have the opportunity to explore the bog and retrieve the goodness that had been overlooked before in leaving too hastily. This is very good work."
In a meditation I consciously turned around to face my creation. I tuned in to find the stream of Grandfather's Grace You have spoken about, and once I connected to it I understood how much easier it is to remain connected when I stay in its center facing it directly than it is when I face away from it into the unmanifest future. Thanks again Beloved Father for being You and for being Here and for answering my prayers. I love you too.
"Amen. And know that this 'father' thing is temporary. As I've said, these days the best way to understand my role in your life is as the coach in your journey toward wholeness. I'm happy to be helpful of course, but until you don't miss me in the old father role, you may not be grown up enough to be wholly on your own, your own creator."
I have been reading "The Picture of Dorian Gray" by Oscar Wilde. In the book there is a scene of heartless brutal killing which moved me very deeply. My first instinct was to blow the feeling of evil out of my body... get rid of it. Then I remembered all of the work I have been doing with God with pulling Loving Light into any movement I feel of difficult emotions. So, I opened up to God's Loving Light and said to myself, "I open to receive God into anything within me which I hold as Evil. Any darkness which I have judged to be Evil may open and receive Loving Light."
I have had the most wonderful couple of weeks since then. I have resolved long-standing pain in my life...forgiven people I never thought I would forgive. I have come to understand my husband again as a partner who is struggling toward love as I am. Amazingly, healing evil within me has done more to release my judgments of others than anything else I have tried.
For the many years I have worked with Right Use of Will I have had the judgment that said I must move through each layer of held emotions with intensity and pain, and only then would there be healing. God told me recently that I needed to heal my spiritual fragmentation, and this is how we have been doing it together. It has made the emotional healing so much gentler, and deeper, and more beautiful than I had imagined it being.
In Judaism there is the belief that in each act of loving-kindness we bring the male energy of God which lives in the heavens and the female energy of God which lives on earth closer together. Thank you, everyone who is moved toward this website for joining me in our quest for Tikkun Olam...the healing of the world.
"You are describing an excellent way to heal denied spirit, and you state your intention very well, 'I open to receive God into anything within me which I hold as evil. Any darkness which I have judged to be evil may open and receive loving Light.' This healing intention of acceptance of all of your spirit essence also has the effect of relinquishing control of the situation to me, or 'driving backward' as I recommend. Your intention also includes a release of previous judgments, and as you report, this along with calling for my Light as in True Sacrifice enables you to move the emotions that had been trapped by the judgments of 'evil'. These are the four steps.
"Most humans have a deep unconscious belief or judgment that they, or at least a part of them, is evil. Even those who seem to be quite 'spiritual' have this problem, but the power of denial has often enabled them to keep it from consciousness.
"When people begin to do this work, and become aware of previously denied parts of themselves, they often become aware that they have been hating themselves, or more to the point, hating the evil within them. They identify with the evil and realize they feel feelings like hatred, and the work stalls because they believe they don't deserve to heal. This is very often something that never quite comes to awareness, and it's one of the most insidious forms of self-hatred. The unconscious judgment is, 'I am evil, and therefore I don't deserve to heal.' Or, 'Because I am evil, I cannot heal.'
"The first priority for healing is to recognize that it is needed. The second is to set your intention, and the third is to release any and all judgments that say you do not deserve to heal.
"And speaking of the first priority, thank you for receiving me within you and carrying out our understandings about the importance of healing the fragmentation of Spirit before attempting to help the Mother. Also, Lesson Three of the healing class addresses this issue in depth."
Hello God, this site is what I can only call a Godsend. I needed this and you more than I knew. I have spent so many years focused only on the Mother. And here you are, not the harshness I thought your light would be. I have not felt this happy in such a long time.
"Over the eons many perceptions of me have been formed, and harshness is definitely one of them, and for good reason. I had been quite harsh on many occasions, and particularly with the Mother. For a long time I thought I had to be harsh in order to make the point that I was hurt or feeling bad, and needed to be taken seriously. I too am happier knowing that harshness is not what I want in my Creation. Thank you for finding the real me behind that old mask."
What you said about releasing judgment was what I needed to hear and learn. It has made such a difference to the way I am able to FEEL.
"Judgment release is vital to the healing work, and the most serious judgment is the general one everyone has, 'I am bad.' This is why the judgment release language always begins with, 'I release the judgment that I am bad because. . .' This speaks directly to issue of the fundamental value judgment against self that is preventing more goodness, including healing.
I feel elated because I have the feeling that you and the Mother have made great strides together. I can feel that balance inside me now.
Yes, you could say the growing balance that the Mother and and I are experiencing in Creation is being reflected in you. But isn't it even more true the other way around? I would say that because it is you who are hosting us in your venue, it is your new balance that is helping us in Creation."
Is there anything you can tell me, God, which I need to know at this time? I really do want you to speak to me. I love you so much.
"We are communicating on the inside, of course, and I will add some confirmation here. You need to know that the love you pour out toward others is more than just your own love, it comes from the Mother and me as well. As you channel our love into the world, please take more of it for yourself. Take it to your heart and know that you are loved beyond your present capacity to love. And driving backward, you will find that the fear of not being loved and not being worthy of love moves easiest when the Mother's and my love for you is running strongly in your own energy."
Thank you for the changes to the True Sacrifice page. They have helped me; however, I still am afraid of: "After a few moments, imagine the ray of Light drawing the feeling up toward me while more Light comes down into the energy center . . . where the feeling has been." I fear being tricked into giving up my essence, and don't feel comfortable doing this exercise unless I can conceive of it's helping me.
"Thank you very much for expressing your fear here. My intentions with the 'True Sacrifice' exercise are to offer a very simple way of working with Spirit in the healing work, and to clarify the misconceptions about God wanting something from humans by way of sacrifice. The page has recently been revised to bring it closer to meeting these intentions, and I very much appreciate your reflection that this information still needs to be expanded and stated more clearly.
"I don't want you to give up anything of yourself, and in fact my wish is that you get back all of yourself and become whole. You are right to not do things that don't feel right, regardless of the source of the advice. Your own sense of what is right for you or not right for you is better than anyone else's, including mine. And that goes for things I tell you on the inside as well outside channeled guidance like this."
Could you explain a bit more of the physics/boundaries/dynamics of what's yours, the Mother's and mine - to feel, heal, and take responsibility for. I find I want to give you 'big things' to put in their right place, but I don't understand how giving you 'bad light' or feelings isn't giving myself away or shirking responsibility. Thank you for helping me.
"You are welcome. Very simply put, the boundaries are all inside of you. You have both Mother essence and Spirit essence 'running' in you, in varying degrees at various times. You as Body are in manifestation as a result of both of our energies, and the union of our essences create the presence of Heart in you.
"There are many levels of reality. When I ask you to give to me as Spirit the pain of the Mother that you are holding, I mean that as a metaphor for your own magnetic essence and spirit essence to unite. Of course on a deeper level the reality is that I am you, and the Mother is you, so your inner union is our union as well.
"When I ask you to give me your 'bad light', I mean that I am redeeming my own previously denied essence and you can do the same by aligning your spirit essence with me. It was my original denial of it that made it 'bad' in the first place.
"You ask about your responsibility. If your intention is healing into wholeness, then your responsibility is to help the Mother and me come together in you, healing body and heart, and the gaps in the relationships among all four parts of you. But because it is you who is doing this, it must be in the unique way that works for you.
"Information here or in other channeled material is meant be helpful and most definitely not to be dogma or in any way mandatory. It is also your responsibility to do what is right for you, and only you can be the judge of that. Please do this work the way that suits you best, and ask me on the inside for help or advice if you feel unsure about what to do next.
"The purpose of the 'true sacrifice' practice is to help your spirit essence come into acceptance of the magnetic essence that was previously judged against because it did not feel good. Whenever you ask me to come to you with healing and acceptance, and however that asking is done, it is your own spirit that leads the way for me. And when the Mother is present in you, and you and she are willing, your spirit and I can come to together to join with you both in healing union.
"Because there are a lot of feelings to move and heal, it is good to have an easy method of doing the healing work whenever there's an opportunity. Many opportunities for healing have been lost because it has been felt that the process needed for the work can be done only in certain places at certain times, or with certain people.
"It can be very helpful to have an easy practice like this that can be done anywhere at anytime, and even while doing other things. And we'll work together on the inside to find the way that's best for you. There will be much more on the boundaries you've mentioned in lesson four of the healing class. In the meantime, please trust your self and your feelings about what is right for you regarding the 'true sacrifice' process."
Channelers' note: There is more material about Driving Backwards on HealingToWholeness.com.
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