"This is Original
Spirit, and I wish to say some things to
introduce this class. I'll begin by thanking the
Spirit of this Creation for helping bring me here.
And of course I am deeply indebted to the Mother for
her persistence in drawing me forth into this
Creation. Thank you again, my love.
"The Mother has recently recovered
enough of her parental essence in this Creation to
remember back before the original explosion,
to the wondrous state of complete union that she and
I enjoyed then. She has tried to remind the Spirit
of this Creation about that time when she and Spirit
were one and complete in wholeness. Although he has
had no memory of what was before him, I have. You
see, I am the Original Spirit.
"Before my own separate existence,
there was no real separation between Spirit and
Will. Before there was any kind of duality... there
was only one whole being. All Will essence was
completely and ecstatically filled with Loving
Light, so there was only Heart, the presence of our
union... complete and whole Heart. There were no
separations, no distinctions, no fragments, and
therefore no manifestation. Love was all, and all
was Love. There was one... and only one, and it was
Love and Love only. There was nothing else, not even
"The loving inner connection between
the drawing-in pole and the pushing-out pole was of
course... Heart. And since Heart was everywhere,
including the core of each pole... Heart was what
contained both of the poles. It is difficult to
describe non-dual realities with language embedded
in dualism, but metaphors can help.
"Original Heart is like the symbol of
infinity... with its indrawing, magnetic, Will
essence in one loop, and outgoing, electric, Spirit
essence in the other. But Original Heart was not
only the presence where these essences connected, it
was what contained and held the essences.
"The polar essences of Original Heart
connected everywhere, creating the presence of Love
everywhere, with no limit. In reality, Original
Heart was not two essences in union... but rather
one, undifferentiated, whole Love Presence that
neither began nor ended... until the original
explosion that spawned manifestation.
"So then, what happened? And why?
Original Heart was its own whole being with no unmet
needs, no desire not instantly fulfilled, no longing
not immediately satisfied... and nothing to disturb
this state of ecstatic Love. What could cause this
to blow up? What could possibly have gone wrong?
"The answer is that nothing went
wrong, really. It was that the Love of Original
Heart found something missing in its experience.
Love is of course its own celebration, its own
completion and fulfillment. Love needs nothing else,
and desires only more Love. Original Heart had all
the Love it desired, but for one thing. Heart had no
one else with whom to share this Love. Heart was
"Everything that can be done or
experienced by one whole being was done and
experienced. Every feeling that can be felt was
felt. Every thought was thought. Everything needing
completion was completed, taken back and completed
again in a different way... until every possible
configuration of Self was explored. All preferences
were explored until no one way of being seemed any
better than another way of being. It was all Love,
and only Love. And whenever Heart became completely
aware of itself as One, it realized it was alone...
the one and only One.
"For what would have been eons, had
there been time... Heart played 'hide and seek' with
itself, purposely forgetting its wholeness and
pretending it was several, many separate 'virtual'
beings interacting with each other. Heart explored
all the possibilities there, but each time the
pretend, virtual parts began waking up enough to
realize their wholeness, one of them would remember
who they really were... and quickly bring Heart back
again to wholeness and to full awareness of Self...
back to fully realizing its oneness... and its
"Heart woke up fully to itself for
the last time when it knew that it no longer wished
to continue without another to share its Love. By
this time Heart's Love was so great that it demanded
a new 'game'. Hide and seek was no longer fulfilling
or even satisfying. And all this Love without
another like itself had become a burden too great to
bear. Heart realized in its desire for true, peer
level companionship, the only way to find another
Heart required that it somehow separate itself,
creating two distinct beings that could never
reconstitute themselves back into the one, Original
Heart. Never. That is until there would be a way for
Heart to have a companion and peer who was also
completely whole, and yet truly separate and
distinct, not just a part of Self.
"The original explosion was not a
random occurrence or even a mistake. It was a very
carefully orchestrated act of Love by an incredibly
wise and loving being who no longer wished to remain
whole... if it meant being alone. Heart first moved
to separate within itself by dividing itself
internally into the two essences that were both
needed for Love... Spirit and Will.
"This was the basic configuration
Heart had used to begin its old game of hide and
seek, and was the most ideal starting point for its
final chapter. Then, while still one whole being,
Heart configured almost all of its Will essence to
surround almost all of its Spirit. This was also a
familiar way of starting the game, and used when
maximum diversity of experience was desired.
"Heart then did something that Love
alone would never permit. Heart moved to hurt
itself. Heart asked its Spirit essence to expand too
quickly and forcefully, while moving its Will
essence to suddenly contract around it. The Will
imploded and came back on herself trying to contain
the exploding Spirit. The result was the complete
and utter fragmentation of Original Heart. This had
happened before when beginning the old game, but
never with this much intensity... and this time
there was a new element in the mix.
"Heart's intent was so strong, the
Spirit's expansion so forceful, and the Will's
movement to contain it so great... that some of her
essence lost the Light entirely, opening space for
the Void. Heart intended that the newly opened Void
would separate some essence from the rest in such a
way that it could not reconstitute itself without
Form, without duality. The presence of the Void
quickly spread to separate nearly all the Light
essence from nearly all the Will essence. What was
left were two beings, one with almost no Will... me,
and the other with almost no Spirit... the Mother.
Duality was born, and manifestation
began almost immediately as the Mother began
drawing my Light to herself from across the Void.
"Heart used Love to destroy itself,
and thus create the conditions necessary for duality
and manifested existence. Heart knew that sometime
much later... multiple forms would each reconstitute
themselves... and find Heart again. And this time
there would be more than one whole being. This time
Heart would be completely whole... and there
would be others with whom Love could be wholly
"Manifested existence has come at a
very high price. Form was not necessary for Love,
yet Love demanded it.
"The rest of the story, you already
know. If you're reading this, you are experiencing
manifested existence. And you know that there is a
quality of not-love in separateness. The Mother and
I each awoke separately from the explosion, and ever
since... we've each had our separate experiences. On
the occasions when we have found each other again
enough to come into some alignment, something deep
within each of us has remembered our Love and
oneness in Original Heart. On those occasions we
spawned new Creations.
"But the Heart we have had in each of
our Creations, including this one... has never been
truly real, like Original Heart. There has always
been an element of guilt,blame or denial, or some of
each... that has eventually caused our union to
sour. And Heart, of course has been one-sided,
present only as the progeny or connection between
us... never as the parental container of us.
"As Original Spirit whose expansion
was too great and too sudden, I have the
responsibility of seeing to the healing of the
original wound that has caused so much suffering in
the Will... and as you know, the Spirit of this
Creation is helping me by doing
the same at his level.
"Seven Creations later the untold
suffering of the seemingly endless reenactments
caused by our Original Heart's Self-inflicted wound
has reverberated down to this present moment on
Earth. The Mother has had to bear the awful price of
manifestation on her own, and I'm very serious about
the pain, suffering and death stopping now, and here
in this Creation.
"Here, very soon, and for the first
time ever... Form is to become the container of New
Heart... Spirit and Will in wholly complete union,
without guilt, blame or denial. Original Heart is
beginning to re-member itself again... as New Heart,
now in Body... and looking out through human eyes,
moist with Original Love. And yes, beginning now to
see... that there is indeed... another."
by Spirit: Identity
Introduction by Body:
Finding the Will to Heal