"This is Grandfather.
Body will be the primary teacher here, and I wish to say some
things to introduce this material, and I'll begin by thanking
the Spirit of this Creation for helping bring me here... and
of course, I am deeply indebted to the Mother for her persistence
in drawing me forth into this Creation. Thank you again, my love.
"The Mother has recently recovered enough
of her parental essence in this Creation to remember back before
the original explosion,
to the wondrous state of complete union that she and I enjoyed
then. She has tried to remind the Spirit of this Creation about
that time when she and Spirit were one and complete in wholeness.
Although he has had no memory of what was before him, I have.
You see, I am the Original Spirit.
"Before my own separate existence, there
was no real separation between Spirit and Will. Before there
was any kind of duality... there was only one whole being. All
Will essence was completely and ecstatically filled with Loving
Light, so there was only Heart, the presence of our union...
complete and whole Heart. There were no separations, no distinctions,
no fragments, and therefore no manifestation. Love was all, and
all was Love. There was one... and only one, and it was Love
and Love only. There was nothing else, not even the Void.
"The loving inner connection between
the drawing-in pole and the pushing-out pole was of course...
Heart. And since Heart was everywhere, including the core of
each pole... Heart was what contained both of the poles. It is
difficult to describe non-dual realities with language embedded
in dualism, but metaphors can help.
"Original Heart is like the symbol of
infinity... with its indrawing, magnetic, Will essence in one
loop, and outgoing, electric, Spirit essence in the other. But
Original Heart was not only the presence where these essences
connected, it was what contained and held the essences.
"The polar essences of Original Heart
connected everywhere, creating the presence of Love everywhere,
with no limit. In reality, Original Heart was not two essences
in union... but rather one, undifferentiated, whole Love Presence
that neither began nor ended... until the original explosion
that spawned manifestation.
"So then, what happened? And why? Original
Heart was its own whole being with no unmet needs, no desire
not instantly fulfilled, no longing not immediately satisfied...
and nothing to disturb this state of ecstatic Love. What could
cause this to blow up? What could possibly have gone wrong?
"The answer is that nothing went wrong,
really. It was that the Love of Original Heart found something
missing in its experience. Love is of course its own celebration,
its own completion and fulfillment. Love needs nothing else,
and desires only more Love. Original Heart had all the Love it
desired, but for one thing. Heart had no one else with whom to
share this Love. Heart was alone.
"Everything that can be done or experienced
by one whole being was done and experienced. Every feeling that
can be felt was felt. Every thought was thought. Everything needing
completion was completed, taken back and completed again in a
different way... until every possible configuration of Self was
explored. All preferences were explored until no one way of being
seemed any better than another way of being. It was all Love,
and only Love. And whenever Heart became completely aware of
itself as One, it realized it was alone... the one and only One.
"For what would have been eons, had there
been time... Heart played 'hide and seek' with itself, purposely
forgetting its wholeness and pretending it was several, many
separate 'virtual' beings interacting with each other. Heart
explored all the possibilities there, but each time the pretend,
virtual parts began waking up enough to realize their wholeness,
one of them would remember who they really were... and quickly
bring Heart back again to wholeness and to full awareness of
Self... back to fully realizing its oneness... and its aloneness.
"Heart woke up fully to itself for the
last time when it knew that it no longer wished to continue without
another to share its Love. By this time Heart's Love was so great
that it demanded a new 'game'. Hide and seek was no longer fulfilling
or even satisfying. And all this Love without another like itself
had become a burden too great to bear. Heart realized in its
desire for true, peer level companionship, the only way to find
another Heart... required that it somehow split itself apart,
creating two distinct beings that could never reconstitute themselves
back into the one, Original Heart. Never, that is... until there
would be a way for Heart to have a companion who was just as
whole, and yet truly separate and distinct, not just a part of
Self.
"The original explosion was not a random
occurrence or even a mistake. It was a very carefully orchestrated
act of Love by an incredibly wise and loving being who no longer
wished to remain whole... if it meant being alone. Heart first
moved to separate within itself by dividing itself internally
into the two essences that were both needed for Love... Spirit
and Will.
"This was the basic configuration Heart
had used to begin its old game of hide and seek, and was the
most ideal starting point for its final chapter. Then, while
still one whole being, Heart configured almost all of its Will
essence to surround almost all of its Spirit. This was also a
familiar way of starting the game, and used when maximum diversity
of experience was desired.
The Explosion
"Heart then did something that Love alone
would never permit. Heart moved to hurt itself. Heart asked its
Spirit essence to expand too quickly and forcefully, while moving
its Will essence to suddenly contract around it. The Will imploded
and came back on herself trying to contain the exploding Spirit.
The result was the complete and utter fragmentation of Original
Heart. This had happened before when beginning the old game,
but never with this much intensity... and this time there was
a new element in the mix.
"Heart's intent was so strong, the Spirit's
expansion so forceful, and the Will's movement to contain it
so great... that some of her essence lost the Light entirely,
opening space for the Void. Heart intended that the newly opened
Void would separate some essence from the rest in such a way
that it could not reconstitute itself without Form, without duality.
The presence of the Void quickly spread to separate nearly all
the Light essence from nearly all the Will essence. What was
left were two beings, one with almost no Will... me, and the
other with almost no Spirit... the Mother. Duality was born,
and manifestation began almost immediately
as the Mother began drawing my Light to herself from across the
Void.
"Heart used Love to destroy itself, and
thus create the conditions necessary for duality and manifested
existence. Heart knew that sometime much later... multiple forms
would each reconstitute themselves... and find Heart again. And
this time there would be more than one whole being. This time
Heart would be completely whole... and there would be
others with whom Love could be wholly shared.
"Manifested existence has come at a very
high price. Form was not necessary for Love, yet Love demanded
it.
"The rest of the story, you already know.
If you're reading this, you are experiencing manifested existence.
And you know that there is a quality of not-love in separateness.
The Mother and I each awoke separately from the explosion, and
ever since... we've each had our separate experiences. On the
occasions when we have found each other again enough to come
into some alignment, something deep within each of us has remembered
our Love and oneness in Original Heart. On those occasions we
spawned new Creations.
"But the Heart we have had in each of
our Creations, including this one... has never been truly real,
like Original Heart. There has always been an element of guilt,blame
or denial, or some of each... that has eventually caused our
union to sour. And Heart, of course has been one-sided, present
only as the progeny or connection between us... never as the
parental container of us.
"As Original Spirit whose expansion was
too great and too sudden, I have the responsibility of seeing
to the healing of the original wound that has caused so much
suffering in the Will... and as you know, the Spirit of this
Creation is helping me by doing the same
at his level.
"Seven Creations later the untold suffering
of the seemingly endless reenactments caused by our Original
Heart's Self-inflicted wound has reverberated down to this present
moment on Earth. The Mother has had to bear the awful price of
manifestation on her own, and I'm very serious about the pain,
suffering and death stopping now, and here in this Creation.
"Here, very soon, and for the first time
ever... Form is to become the container of New Heart... Spirit
and Will in wholly complete union, without guilt, blame or denial.
Original Heart is beginning to re-member itself again... as New
Heart, now in Body... and looking out through human eyes, moist
with Original Love. And yes, beginning now to see... that there
is indeed... another."
Next: Introduction
by Body: Finding the Will to Heal