"This is Spirit, and as I have said, there
are many levels to reality. 'Manifestation'
is the evidence of existence at each of these levels, from the
most ethereal and sublime spiritual reality to the most dense
and solid physical reality. In the multiplicity of Creation it's
easy to miss the fundamental fact that all of existence, each
separate being and object, is dependent on the interplay of the
two primary forces of Creation. These of course are the in-drawing,
magnetic, feminine, Will, 'Mother'
essence and the out-pushing, electric, masculine Spirit,
"The two primary forces issue
out of the Void and together form existence. However, neither
pure Will, Mother essence nor pure Light, Spirit essence independently
'exist' in the ordinary sense of the word. As Will comes out
of the Void she draws Light to her, and it's by virtue of the
presence of the Light that she knows of her existence. On the
other hand, Spirit cannot even emerge from the Void without Will
to draw him out and open space for him.
"As we define it here, existence is all
that is outside of the Void. Will emerges first from the Void,
but until Light is present as a reference, she cannot know herself
as existent. And Light cannot come into existence from out of
the Void on his own, he needs Will to draw him forth.
"A good metaphor for this is a painting.
Both paint and canvas are necessary for the painting to 'exist'.
If either the paint or the canvas are absent, the image is too.
Spirit or Light is the information, and Will is the medium that
carries the Light into manifestation. The medium is there first,
but there is no manifestation without the content. And the existence
of the content is absolutely dependent on the medium that carries
and holds it.
Identity & Definition
"The most important qualities of an object
or being in the outer world are its identity and its definition,
who it is and what it is. Manifestations are identified
by virtue of their Spirit essence and defined by virtue
of the their Will essence.
"To outward appearance it seems that
manifestations are masculine because it is their Spirit essence
that is perceived on the outside. The Desire that has called
them into existence and defines them is rarely noticed. This
is because Will is not something that can be seen on the outside,
she can only be felt on the inside.
"On the other hand, when a being perceives
themselves as either the observer or creator of a manifestation,
they 'identify' with their own Will essence. However, feeling
beyond the outer appearance of another person or other manifestation,
feeling into the essential magnetic nature of another is seldom
done. Yet it is the only way to truly know them. It's the difference
in mode between feeling and seeing that makes the difference
between perceiving and projecting.
"The two essential forces of creation
are the precursors of existence and therefore more fundamental
than any manifestation. And as we've seen, neither can 'exist'
independently because existence means that both essences are
present. All that exists in manifestation, absolutely everything
in Creation, exists by virtue of an intentional collaboration
between Will and Spirit.
"The role of Will, the magnetic Mother
essence in manifestation, is to open the space, to provide the
place, the womb necessary for something to come into existence.
However, the Mother's role goes far beyond simply providing the
matrix of existence by opening space within herself for Light
to manifest. Her desire for the manifestation draws Light into
the space she opens. And the space she opens specifically defines
each manifestation, as it conforms to the contours of her desire.
In this way Light becomes the pattern that fulfills the craving
of the matrix created by the Mother's desire.
"It is the specific desire, craving,
wanting, drawing energy of the Universal Feminine that determines
the shape of the 'form' or pattern of Light that will exist within
the space she opens. In other words, the manifestation of a body,
an object or being conforms exactly to the desires of the magnetic
essence that manifests it.
"The Mother says what it will be, where
it will go, and what it will do. This is why she is called 'Will',
and why I speak of her as my own, or 'God's Will'. And I hasten
to add, it's not that she belongs to me, but rather that I belong
to her. The Mother's Will is the one true Will of Creation, and
now that I have evolved enough to know this, I also know that
it is my Will as well.
"The role of Spirit in manifestation
is to fill the space opened by the Mother with the frequency
and intensity of Light she desires. The Light of Spirit enters
and fills the womb of Creation, and when she is ready for a new
manifestation... the Mother completely contains the Light, separating
the new manifestation from all other forms. The new being or
object now has its unique identity as an individual, its spirit
essence is unique and separate from all other Spirit.
"This is the process of manifestation
from the perspective of Spirit, and it operates at every
level of reality. But only half of it can be observed 'out
there'. Light and the manifested forms is what is seen,
Will must be felt. Spirit can be either an objective or
subjective experience, Will is only perceivable or knowable subjectively,
and she's the deepest subject you'll ever explore. Very few humans
have taken the leap of belief necessary to experience how the
Will operates far beneath their ordinary awareness, or how their
unconscious desires have been creating
the conditions and circumstances they perceive in their reality.
"This of course raises the issue of why
anyone would want to manifest any discomfort, let alone pain
and suffering, death and disease. This was a big question back
even before the beginning of Creation, and it's taken this much
evolution for me to be in a position to fully address it.
"We've begun the exploration of this
topic in the healing class, and we'll
continue it in earnest in the upcoming lesson on Body. In that
lesson we'll focus on the human body as the archetypal representation
of all bodies, the microcosm of all manifestation. And this third
lesson of the Reality Class will serve as the introduction to
"Energy is the first level of reality
and the fundamental 'substance' of manifestation. All individual
manifestations such as beings, objects, bodies and forms are
expressions of the energy generated by the interactions
of Spirit and Will as they playfully create together.
"The magnetic drawing power of Will is
like a spinning vortex that draws Spirit down into the center
of her desire. The presence of this willing Light excites and
quickens the vortex action as Will 'spins' the Light through
to the bottom of her desire.
"The result of this spinning in the presence
of Light is energy. The amount, frequency and kind of energy,
essence or 'presence' that is manifested depends on Will's specific
desire and how much of her own essence is involved in the vortex
"This principle applies on all levels
of manifestation. The ancient cosmic entities, angels, and other
non-evolutionary spiritual beings are mostly Light, with very
little Will involvement. At the other extreme, physical matter
is mostly Will essence, with little need of Light. It's called
'matter' because it is of the Mother, and yet its essence is
energy, but held under compression.
"Manifestations that are heavier, with
more substance, weight, mass and gravity, under more pressure,
and with a lower frequency of spin tend to have a preponderance
of Will essence. On the other hand, manifestations that are lighter,
more ethereal, with less density and substance are generally
more Spirit polarized.
"A thought, for instance, has very little
'substance' or 'weight', and is quite ethereal compared to a
feeling, which is generally a much slower moving and more substantial
experience. From your point of reference in the world of matter,
a galaxy moves very slowly compared with a solar system or the
particles of an atom, and all of these are nearly motionless
compared to the ideas, thoughts and feelings you experience as
you behold them."
"Manifested existence is a continuum
with many levels of reality. It includes everything from my Light
and inspiration down through ideas and thoughts to Heart presence,
feelings and emotions... through all the varieties of subtle
and life force energy, physical energy... all the way through
the domains of photons and electrons to the most dense physical
forms manifesting as 'black holes'. All of existence, all of
manifestation is a spontaneous dance of the energy created in
the union of Spirit and Will.
"Energy itself can be felt, but except
for visible light on the outside and spiritual light on the inside,
only the secondary effects of energy can be seen. For most humans
energy has been nearly imperceptible because of a subtle materialistic
conditioning which has had you believing that if you can't see
it, it doesn't exist.
"The kind of energy most important for
humans to perceive and develop is your own 'human energy'. The
'human energy system' consists of what has been called 'etheric'
energy, along with its centers and pathways that parallel the
"Etheric' means 'beyond the earth' or
'heavenly', and as a metaphysical term relates to an unseen fifth
element in the ancient four element system of physics. However,
the energy of the human energy system manifests on many levels,
including 'kundalini' energy and sexual energy. Some kinds of
human energy are quite palpable, and very earthy.
"We've borrowed the term 'etheric' from
your metaphysics in describing this energy in the channeling
class, and particularly in the running
energy exercise. But from now on I'll be using the term 'human
energy' in place of 'etheric energy' to help make it clear that
we're discussing the full range of your energy realities, and
not just the 'heavenly' parts.
The Observer & the Creator
"Perception of manifestation is dependent
upon an observer or 'experiencer', and since all but the void
is manifest, the observer is too. The one experiencing a manifestation,
however, is on a different level of reality than the manifestation
they experience. Even a galaxy is captured as a perception within
the field of its observer.
"You've been having a long philosophical
debate, and now even a scientific debate about where the field
of existence is. Is there an objective, outside universe? Or,
is any kind of 'existence', including the universe itself, dependent
on an observer? In other words, where is reality, and does it
exist independent of observation?
"A good answer to this question is an
even better question, 'Who's asking?' As you identify
yourself in answering this, you point to your own Spirit essence.
Another good answer to the question of reality's location is,
'Who cares?' The answer here helps define you and your
values, and points to your Will essence.
"It's the Mother who 'holds the whole
world in her hands.' It's your Will that holds all the objects
of your perception, bringing them from your perspective in and
out of manifestation, as she moves them through the matrix of
her essence... in response to your spirit's questions and her
own desires. And all of this is within your field, you
are the venue, it is your field in which manifestation happens.
"Most of the time you've been out of
touch with either the Mother or me, or both of us. In these times
you've been the observer or the experiencer of manifestation,
and it's seemed external to you. It's only when you're connected
with both the Mother and me that you can begin to be aware of
your own wholeness. As your inner union mirrors our outer union
in manifestation, you find yourself becoming
awake to realize that you're the one who's creating what
you've been perceiving 'out there' in the world.
"And this level of wakefulness can lead
you to complete wholeness, if you use
the opportunity of your new awareness to cease creating new manifestations.
If you stop looking forward, you can turn around and truly perceive
what has already come to be. One of the strongest advantages
in 'driving backward' is
this change of attitude, from willy-nilly manifesting based on
false assumptions of what you want... to careful consideration,
and even reverence for what has already come into existence.
There is no higher virtue than knowing the whole truth of what
"And an even better question than 'Where
is reality?' is 'Where am I?' When you perceive yourself turned
around facing the past, with your back to the future, right up
against the howling, shaking intensity of the Void... when you
feel yourself being ripped open as Heart with all manifestation
erupting out through you... when you experience all of Creation
streaming down from its original cause here with you in the eternal
present... you will have caught up with the Mother and me. True
Wholeness will then be your next step.
The Explosion of Conception
"I have said that Creation began with
an explosion. The same
is true for each individual manifestation. And that initial explosion
of conception is still going on at the deepest levels of manifested
reality, where the time is always now.
"The explosion on one hand is very spirited,
uplifting, exciting and celebratory, an orgasm of love for what
is coming into existence. On another side, however, there is
deep pain and suffering. The force of the explosion causes the
Will essence that was necessary to create the initial compression,
but not necessary to contain and define the manifestation, to
be blown away.
"A great pressure of compression is needed
when the Mother contains the Light of the manifestation completely
within herself, just prior to the orgasmic release of the new
manifestation. The Will swirls herself around the Light she has
drawn into her. She then contracts herself, squeezing her vortex
enough to compress the Spirit and Will essences of the manifestation
so they become fused together. The new essence then bursts forth
into the space opened by her desire as a new, self-contained
Creation or manifestation.
"However, more Will essence is needed
at the moment of conception to contract and compress the new
form than is necessary later to hold the manifestation present
in existence. The extra, unneeded Will essence is literally blown
away from the point of conception, and she experiences deep pain
and trauma in this process.The parts of the Mother that can no
longer stay present with the Light of the manifestation experience
themselves falling away from both the Light of her desire, and
her own essence that stayed with the Light.
"More Spirit polarized creations need
relatively little Will essence to hold them in manifestation,
and therefore cause the Mother more pain. More of her essence
is forcefully separated from them in the explosion of their conception.
The more Will polarized creations need relatively less Spirit
essence to inspire and identify them. They retain more of the
Will essence that manifests them, and are therefore much more
comfortable for the Mother to bring forth and hold in existence.
"The pain of the Mother in manifesting
the ancient spirits and the various orders of angels went unnoticed
by me, except as what seemed to be inexplicable hostility toward
me, and sometimes them, for 'hurting' her. I had felt her intense
pleasure in the process of manifesting, so it was very difficult
for me to understand why she was so unhappy with the aftermath.
"This question caused me to turn away
from the Mother and our manifesting until I could study the problem
enough to discover what was going wrong. It was during this time
of planning a new, more careful approach to manifesting... when
I felt a loss of Light that I barely noticed at the time.
"The Mother drew out of me the means
to manifest her deepest desires, and without so much pain. She
spun from me a lover than could give her something I could not,
enough Will presence to move with her desires and to know her
pain. The Mother's desire for passion magnetized Light that was
available to her for this, because it was not part my own self-awareness
while I was 'planning'.
"This Light then became the inspiring
and identifying spirit of her new lover, the 'Father'. The Mother
has ever since favored him as her consort because the Father's
Will essence enables him to match the desires of her vortex with
his own swirling essence of longing and passion.
"However, there is another way of understanding
this. There were parts of me that wished to passionately embrace
and hold the Mother, parts that wished to be spontaneously drawn
to tumble with the Will into deeper and denser levels of manifestation.
These parts leapt out from behind the awareness of the rest of
me that wished to manifest a well planned and orderly Creation,
and into the arms of the Mother. In drawing forth the Father,
she gave form and expression to the parts of my Light that shared
"And from the Mother's perspective, her
desire was to manifest a meaningful and substantial Creation
that was passionate and spontaneous, a Creation that gave her
pleasure and didn't hurt so much to manifest. Her desire attracted
the parts of me that were willing to go along with her for this
'walk on the wild side', the parts of my essence who were willing
to stay a little on edge with the spontaneous nature of her desires.
Most of me was too rational and cautious to
be led in that direction, and the Father became manifest in answer
to the Mother's crying out in her loneliness and longing. And
as the Mother's first manifestation on her own, he became cast as the Father of her Creation.
When she declared him her mate, this part of Spirit became spun
with a great amount of Will essence. Although masculine in spirit,
the Father of Manifestation embraces so much Will essence that
he is properly part of the Will polarity.
"Since the emergence of the Father, I've
maintained my presence in varying degrees for the rest of the
manifestation of Creation. I've been present to add my Light
of blessings and grace between their respective vortices of Creation.
And although my Light is the core of the Father and within all
that is manifest, it's been the Father's own Light in union with
the Mother's Will that has brought most of the richness, sensation
and pleasure of Creation into existence. Now, of course, I realize
the value of manifesting the way the Mother wants to do it, and
I'm therefore moving into a much more supportive role with the
"The Father and I are in better alignment
now than we've ever been, and as head of the Spirit
polarity, I've been speaking for the Father's loving Light
as well as my own throughout the pages of this web site. From
the perspective of humans, we are both known as 'God', and he
and I are ultimately one. But we've still got more work to do
in healing the gap that's had us split in two since the beginning.
In many ways I'm relating now with the Father as Grandfather
has been relating with me since I asked for his help in healing
"For a long time I believed the Father
to be separate from me, my rival, and even my enemy. My understandings
have evolved, however, and I know now that he and I are destined
to be completely reunited. He is the Father of Creation, the
Father of Manifestation... he is my Body. And from his perspective,
I am his Spirit. Much of him is still very angry with me, and
rightfully so. I welcome his rage, because this is all loving
Light can do. I desire whole, loving union with Body, and until
then I wish to be helpful in any way I can.
"Together in wholeness Body and I are
a powerful channel of loving Light equal to the challenge of
meeting all the needs and desires of the Mother, as together
we move toward wholeness, toward healing ourselves and all of
Creation. There will be more on this subject and on the relationships
among Body, Will, Heart and Spirit in upcoming lessons. And if
you haven't already, I recommend reading the first three lessons
of this class as preparation for the new material."
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