"When she is ready, and in the ways she
wishes, I will bring the Mother the healing power of my true Light, the
Light of love, understanding and acceptance. As you and I work together
on your awakening to who you truly are, it is my hope that you'll also
work with me in bringing healing to the Mother.
"I must point out that it is your choice.
Free will would be meaningless if you didn't have this choice. I also
want to say that whatever you choose in this or any matter is always
the right choice for you, and I will always support you in it.
"This class is about healing. You will heal
yourself as you learn to channel my loving
Light through your own spirit to the parts of the Mother in you
that need it. And as you heal yourself, you and I will also heal the
rest of Creation.
"Just as I am within you, so is the Mother.
You can know my presence within as your aspirations, your highest, most
loving thoughts and ideas. You can know the Mother's presence within as
your desires, your feelings, emotions and passion. The name I know her
by is 'Desire.'
"Illness, suffering and even death are the
results of the harm that has come to Desire, to true feelings and
emotions. You have inherited, as have all beings in Creation, the
original imprints caused by hostile light that is still trapped in the
Mother.
"For a long time after the Mother and I
became aware of each other, I blamed her for the bad feelings I
sometimes got from her. I wasn't yet aware of her imprints, or that I
had caused them. Neither of us knew that her bad feelings about
seemingly innocent things I did were caused by her deepest imprints
being stirred.
"In modern psychological terms, 'She was
triggered by my behaviors which caused her to reenact her original
trauma.' But this dynamic no longer applies to just the Mother and me.
It's about all of Creation. What happened originally between us is
still happening now inside of you.
"For a long time after I became aware that
the Mother had been seriously damaged by her deep imprints, I still
blamed her for them. I couldn't remember doing anything to her myself.
I felt that it must have been someone else who had done this, no doubt
'Lucifer.'
"Most of the messages I have sent to
humanity through my prophets, teachers and
channelers have been skewed by the blame I had for the Mother.
Patriarchy and prejudice against women are reflections of my original
blame that still remain.
"Without going into the details now, I'll
say that the least serious thing I did because of her bad feelings was
to ignore her. More serious actions included banishing her from heaven
and ostracizing and humiliating her in front of all the beings we had
created together.
"The worst thing I did was to turn the other
way as my denied power took the form of Lucifer and mercilessly
tortured her for most of eternity in a place that can only be called
Hell. You may be thinking that surely God could not have done these
things. But I know now that I did do these things, although for a long
time I was in denial of it.
Apology to the Mother
"Because I am no longer denying the damage
that the Mother has suffered, I can help her heal it. And this is my
intention. The road thus far has been long and twisted, with many false
starts and dead ends. Now that the truth of what has happened is
exposed, I will never again be able to go into denial about these
things.
"I will never again turn away from the
Mother or her pain. The road ahead is quite different than where we've
been so far in Creation. The new road begins here.
"There are no words adequate to convey the
depth of my sorrow for what my denied light has done to the Mother. I
can only express this in Creation and specifically in the ways that I
make it up to her. Until now, Creation has been Spirit's thing. The
Mother's role was either ignored or minimized.
"I begin my apology here with this message
to the Mother, 'I am sorry I used my power to protect and glorify
myself at your expense. I know now that you never meant me any harm and
that what I saw as ugly in you was my own reflection. I understand now
that the true power and glory of Creation is in your deepest and most
sensitive Desire.
"'My love, I am now ready to fulfill the
promise I first made to you. I now make it so that your Desire is my
will. I'm sorry I took so long to get that right. And I will
demonstrate my seriousness and sincerity to you beginning now.'
"This is the end of the first lesson in this
class. I have much more to say about the Mother and me, and in other
lessons I will share some practical methods that will make it easier to
do the healing work we've begun to describe. In the meanwhile, I would
like you read the page on judgment. Also,
recommended reading for this class is Right Use of Will by
Ceanne DeRohan."