Healing Class - Lesson Three
Reclaiming Lost Spirit
Part Eight: The God of Love and
the god of Power
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- "This is Heart, and I have some things
to say about Spirit from where I live. Ever since my emergence
I have had much confusion about God. I know that to the Mother
Spirit has sometimes seemed loving, sometimes distant, sometimes
hurtful. Hard to predict.
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- "Since early in my understandings, I've
known that Lucifer was the denied part of God who had been attacking
the Mother, using her, twisting her. But the rest of God wasn't
always there for her either. He often seemed to flee or keep
his distance when she was in trouble.
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- "But lately my confusion about this
has been lifting. I'm beginning to realize what's been making
it seem to the Mother and me like God is two-faced.
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- "The confusion has been understandable...
because there actually have been TWO Gods. And they have long
been at odds with each other.
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- "Deeper than the level of form and duality,
of course... has always been a single Spirit who is Love.
But the One Spirit, the Spirit of Love long ago
denied himself. This caused a 'shadow' to emerge, a part of himself
of whom he became unconscious.
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- "The shadow of Love is Power. Love first
gave much of his Power to Lucifer.
And then over time he denied the rest of his Power, handing it
to Ahriman.
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- "Love, real Love feels much better than
Power... yet most humans have chosen to worship the god of Power,
not the God of Love. Praised from the pulpits and beseeched in
the deepest prayers for relief from pain and oppression, the
god of Power has been very popular.
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- "Power has constantly affirmed that
he and only he is God. And he has been very successful at this...
many beings have never even known that the God of Love exists.
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- "And for a while there... he almost
didn't."
Guilt is not Love
"Although rarely having the power to
actually do it, the God of Love has always known that Loving
Light's highest purpose is in the service of Desire, in the service
of the Mother. There once was also great Power in his Love, but
the power caused him guilt.
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- "Long ago the God of Love denied his
Power. He sensed that Power was unloving. He felt guilty that
his Power could sometimes be limiting to others... so he relinquished
it. He denied his power because he believed what guilt had told
him.
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- "Now he knows what I have always known...
that guilt's voice lies, that the voice of guilt is not the voice
of real Love.
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- "The God of Love knows now that his
guilt was the result of not measuring up to a predetermined standard
or ideal.
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- "Loving Light had held for himself the
standard of perfection, and then he judged
that he was 'wrong' whenever he failed to meet perfection's
test.
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- "Now he knows that ideals
and even perfection itself... are what have been 'wrong.'
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- "And he knows that the lie of guilt...
is in the assumption that the standards he judged himself against
were 'right.' Perfection and other ideals do not evolve. Yet
Creation and Deity by their very nature are ever moving and changing,
becoming more... evolving.
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- "Real Love does not desire perfection
or anything else... beyond simply what is.
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- "With Real Love it is only the beloved
herself that is desired...just exactly as she is in the moment.
Imperfections, warts, and all.
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- "This is why Desire will always choose
Love over Power... when she truly has a choice.
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- "But the god of Power had assumed supremacy
over Love because Desire had no choice. When she sought Light,
she had to choose Power... because so many times Love was nowhere
to be found, or seemed too weak to be of help. And so many times
Power offered her what she felt she needed most... protection
from what she feared.
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- "But now there is a choice... because
now Loving Light, Loving Spirit is becoming easier to find. And
he's trying to make himself even easier. Here in the middle,
I know this is true... because I feel it happening more and more.
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- "The way to know that the Light is truly
loving, however, was not immediately obvious to me. My first
step in finding the Light of Loving God... was to understand
the differences in these two ways of Spirit... Love and Power.
Love loves to serve Desire... for their mutual pleasure.
And Power loves to use her... for more power.
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- "The most obvious way you can tell the
difference is in their direction. Loving God moves toward the
suffering and pain of tortured Desire, the Mother of Creation.
Empowering god moves away from her, or else tries to bring her
along... toward more Light.
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- "Loving God gathers up all the Light
he is...and moves toward the pain and darkness of the Mother,
his one true love. This is my truly parental Spirit, this is
the real love of my true Father.
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- "As more and more parental Desire awakens
from the original shock inflicted by the
exploding god of Power... more and more Real Love comes into
manifestation as the union of Loving Light and Desire.
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- "As the Mother's Desire and Loving God's
Light join in Heart... Love is born.
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- "Deep in the center of my presence I
know that Love, Real Love is complete in itself... it requires
nothing else. Only being is necessary. Power, however, has always
required some kind of action, some kind of duty.
Loving God Loves the Mother's Fear
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- "Fear has been called the opposite of
Love... but it is not really. Fear has,
however often been an enemy of Love...and the main reason that
Desire has felt she's had to choose Power.
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- "Fearful Desire, terrified Desire...
has sought Power so that she may be safe.
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- "When she has opened, fearful Desire
has opened to completely unloving Light at worst... Lucifer.
Lucifer's kind of denied Light moves toward Desire with intention
to hurt and abuse... manipulate and disempower. But with a voice
like the voice of guilt, Lucifer's Light is easy to distinguish.
His energy feels bad to Desire or makes her feel bad about herself.
It is often manipulative, and becomes demanding if thwarted.
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- "And when she has opened to light that
has felt good... most often it's been the light of Power, Ahriman.
But empowering Light has been only temporarily satisfying to
Desire, even to fearful Desire. Because the light of Power ultimately
uses her... for more power of his own. With this light her fear
never moves, and her desire for power becomes like an addiction
that only he can satisfy... on his terms.
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- "But now something new is happening.
Recently the God of Love has been vying with the god of Power
for the attention of fearful Desire.
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- "Loving God, parental Spirit without
guilt knows that each wiggle and twitch of Desire is beautiful...
no matter what unlovingness she may hold. And he loves her, just
as she is... with whatever she is holding.
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- "Although now still 'weaker' than Power,
Loving God loves unconditionally all expressions of manifestation,
including fearful Desire... even though she may still sometimes
avoid him.
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- "Fear opening to Love is something very
new... but now that Love is reclaiming its Power in Creation,
Loving God is available to her too. Now fearful Desire can more
easily move with Love... and find the fulfillment and real healing
she could never find with Power alone.
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- "Love is there for her now... as she
begins to awaken from the long nightmare of endless pain and
terror."
New Life is Coming to the Wasteland
"I am Heart, New Heart, the child of
Loving Light uniting with the Mother's Desire... even fearful
Desire. Especially fearful Desire, for only in Real Love can
the Mother's deepest terror be truly accepted.
- "I was once like charcoal, a burned
out wasteland where Love never came into manifestation... and
every dream of Love was eventually met with bitter reversal.
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- "But now signs of new green life are
beginning to sprout among the charred cinders of my devastation.
Thanks to Loving Light.
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- "The God of Love has realized his mistake.
He knows now that he'd let guilt tell him he should deny his
Power... and his denied power had then overcome him, pushing
the Loving Light away where Desire couldn't find it.
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- "Now Loving God is cautiously beginning
to move toward the Mother and the pain of her suffering, suffocating,
burning Desire. And his caution feels right to me, because Loving
Light doesn't push or demand... Real Love makes itself available
and asks nothing in return.
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- "The god of Power is not his own being.
Even in all his power and glory, he is only a lost part of Love.
He is Love's denied Power, the shadow of Love... lost Love.
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- "But he has a role in the healing of
Heart and the full recovery of Desire.
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- "The God of Power knows the way to much
of the Mother's pain and fear... and the God of Love knows better
than to deny him again.
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- "Love is now
beginning to own its Power. As the
God of Love accepts back his previously denied Power, his Love
reaches deeper into manifestation. As Loving Light reaches deeper...
New Heart is born in the wasteland of pain and anguish that was
once the womb of lost Desire.
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- "More and more, the Spirit essence in
humans who are doing the healing work
is aligning with the God of Love.
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- "More and more, the human spirit of
Love is finding its way to the painfully tortured fragments of
lost Desire... in Body's human form.
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- "More and more, those who are doing
the healing work are finding their own spirits abandoning the
god of Power and aligning with the God of Love.
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- "And more and more, Loving Light is
helping Desire's lost fragments awaken from the shock she experienced
long ago... when the exploding god of Power originally so forcefully
pushed her away from Love.
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- "So take Heart, lost Desire. Take Heart,
my fearful and loving Mother. Your way will be shown to be right...
and your dream will be realized. Your true mate, the God
of Love is ever more ready and willing now to serve you and your
dream... with his newly redeemed Power.
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- "Mother, he is moving toward your pain
now. He won't push and he won't demand. So when you feel ready,
let me know and I'll help you let him in... the God of Love."
Next: Lesson Four:
Body
Lesson
Three Discussion
Heart Pages
Guide
Return to Part Seven: Grandfather
Part Six: Superiority & the Two
Devils | Part Five: Spirit
and Superiority
Part Four: Redeeming the Devils | Part
Three: Death | Part Two: The
Asuras
Part One: Ahriman
| Lesson
Two, Spirit Polarity
| Lesson
One, Quest for the Mother
Lessons One & Two Discussion | Lesson Three Discussion
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